I'm feeling quite unsettled tonight. I am putting on a big massage event, and keeping recycling in my head about what I'm doing with my life. Every 3-4 years I get a big itch to move on, and it is suddenly hitting me again. This is the time of year I quit working at Chevron 4 years ago.

My exit strategy is not clear. I'd like to coach the season out, and possibly do another. I'm still feeling out how much time I can commit to my massage therapy business. I really need people running it who have more time to promote it than I do. There is so much team stuff and social networking stuff that can be done with it that I simply do not have time or energy to organize. I would love to have a successor that I could advise, someone who is super-passionate about what they are providing to the community and can promote it full-time.

It's time for some deep thinking, maybe this weekend. I'm also recycling my dating ideas currently. Love, love, love the guy I've been seeing, but feeling like I want to consume him more than he wants to be consumed, so I'm branching out in the love department. Probably should get my work shi# together first, but feeling like maybe a relationship could help me plot my next course of action. It's getting close to "family" time for me, biologically. Maybe it's not so bad if I start winding things down a bit on the work front and just work on being more fiscally responsible…Lord knows it's about time.

To changes

Ain't no sunshine when he's gone.
It's not warm when he's away.
Ain't no sunshine when he's gone
And he's always gone too long anytime he goes away.

Wonder this time where he's gone,
Wonder if he's gone to stay
Ain't no sunshine when he's gone
And this house just ain't no home anytime he goes away.

And I know, I know, I know, I know, I know,
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know,
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know,
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know

Hey, I ought to leave the young thing alone,
But ain't no sunshine when he's gone, only darkness everyday.
Ain't no sunshine when he's gone,
And this house just ain't no home anytime he goes away.

Anytime he goes away.
Anytime he goes away.
Anytime he goes away.
Anytime he goes away.

You know you're in hot water when two weeks feels like two lifetimes.

My business and coaching to-do lists have been expanding for some time. Time for a personal to-do!

-redesign clothes storage
-hang colorful artwork
-move furniture
-colorful bedsheets/duvet

-sign up for surf lesson
-find chinese language cd & commit 30mins daily
-schedule weekly to-do checkup time
-buy lingerie (ooo-la-la)
-schedule laundry
-sew laptop chargers onto cases
-organize makeup
-give away uncomfortable shoes
-put unused items into storage
-organize books for at-home or on-the-go
-lunch-making station
-defrost fridge
-spare change container
-find mini sunscreens

My roommate Uvonne dedicated this song to me today. I DO have so much love to give!!


Don’t do that 
Baby, please don’t do that 
What are you cryin’ for 
Is it because you’re sad or mad or 
Nothing’s gonna go wrong 
Sometimes we feel inside of us that 
That everything we have is only here for today 
But every now and then two people get lucky 
And find that certain thing that make them wanna 
Just keep it, just keep it that way 
I don’t want you to feel that 
That you have to go through these changes when 
Knowin’ no way 
I know that our love is different 
Our lives will be different 
Trust me, baby, trust me 

Now that I’m here no more tears 
Come here, come here 
And you won’t find things that broke your heart 
And blew your mind 
Not here, no, not here 

And my, oh, my 
Girl, can’t you see, can’t you see that I 
I’ve got so much to give to you, my dear 
It’s gonna take a lifetime, it’s gonna take years 

To you my dear I’ve got so much to give 
It’s gonna take my lifetime 
It’s gonna take years and years and years and years 

And I’ll fill you in your hopes and dreams 
Believe me, girl, you got everything 
Right here, right here 
No one could offer you more 
Than the love I have for you in store 
It’s here, oh, oh, yeah 

And my, oh, my 
Honey, can’t you see, can’t you see that I 
I got so much to give to you my dear 
It’s gonna take a lifetime, it’s gonna take years 

To you my dear I’ve got so much to give 
It’s gonna take my lifetime 
It’s gonna take years and years and years and years 

Believe me, baby 
We found that certain thing 
That certain feeling 
That lets two people express themselves how they feel 
Let your love flow inside of you 
Don’t be afraid, don’t be afraid, baby