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Read: The UltraMind Solution by Dr. Mark Hyman

Next Step?

What do I want?
What is the Universe suggesting to me?
I feel weightless
Unpulled
Not desiring
I need a clue
I’ve recycled my gifts fully already?
Is it time for a new education?
I get busy thinking
Researching
Computing
And the answers do not come
I lay here and be still
And the answers do not come
Am I forgotten?
Lost?
Trapped?
Did I wander off path?
Where is my guide?

Dopamine Hypotheses

I caught parts of an interesting show called the Science of Sex Appeal. I thought of some other areas where the same chemicals involved in love/attraction may be playing hidden roles in other relationships:


Celebrity Freakouts
I am curious to know whether dopamine is the cause of celebrity freakouts in young women. A relationship with a celebrity is one-sided. A person can build up a whole “history” or “relationship” with another person simply by hearing or reading about them. Those positive memories of a celebrity could activate elevated dopamine production via the Caudate Nucleus. Once the girl, who is already in “love” (maintains high dopamine levels by thinking of the celebrity constantly) meets the celebrity or thinks she is about to meet the celebrity in person, dopamine levels spike, causing an overreaction that appears drug-induced (because it is).

Coaching Relationships
According to both the Maslow and ERG Theory hierarchy of needs, esteem and relatedness are very important to a person. The need to feel appreciated, like at a job, is consistently ranked very high next to other even more basic needs. People need to feel connected. Dopamine connects people chemically. It makes you want to repeat an experience that feels rewarding. Forming positive experiences with other people causes them to produce dopamine when they think of you. Dopamine leads to cravings. Cravings pull from the heart, energetically speaking.

You’ve heard the expression: “My heart just isn’t into it anymore.” Likely what happened is that the reward circuit has stopped. Unpleasant memories have crowded out the pleasant ones. Dopamine production goes down, cravings for the person/activity dwindle.

more thoughts later…

Personal

I'm feeling quite unsettled tonight. I am putting on a big massage event, and keeping recycling in my head about what I'm doing with my life. Every 3-4 years I get a big itch to move on, and it is suddenly hitting me again. This is the time of year I quit working at Chevron 4 years ago.

My exit strategy is not clear. I'd like to coach the season out, and possibly do another. I'm still feeling out how much time I can commit to my massage therapy business. I really need people running it who have more time to promote it than I do. There is so much team stuff and social networking stuff that can be done with it that I simply do not have time or energy to organize. I would love to have a successor that I could advise, someone who is super-passionate about what they are providing to the community and can promote it full-time.

It's time for some deep thinking, maybe this weekend. I'm also recycling my dating ideas currently. Love, love, love the guy I've been seeing, but feeling like I want to consume him more than he wants to be consumed, so I'm branching out in the love department. Probably should get my work shi# together first, but feeling like maybe a relationship could help me plot my next course of action. It's getting close to "family" time for me, biologically. Maybe it's not so bad if I start winding things down a bit on the work front and just work on being more fiscally responsible…Lord knows it's about time.

To changes

Bill Withers, I feel your pain

Ain't no sunshine when he's gone.
It's not warm when he's away.
Ain't no sunshine when he's gone
And he's always gone too long anytime he goes away.

Wonder this time where he's gone,
Wonder if he's gone to stay
Ain't no sunshine when he's gone
And this house just ain't no home anytime he goes away.

And I know, I know, I know, I know, I know,
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know,
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know,
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know

Hey, I ought to leave the young thing alone,
But ain't no sunshine when he's gone, only darkness everyday.
Ain't no sunshine when he's gone,
And this house just ain't no home anytime he goes away.

Anytime he goes away.
Anytime he goes away.
Anytime he goes away.
Anytime he goes away.

Personal To Do

My business and coaching to-do lists have been expanding for some time. Time for a personal to-do!

-redesign clothes storage
-hang colorful artwork
-move furniture
-colorful bedsheets/duvet

-sign up for surf lesson
-find chinese language cd & commit 30mins daily
-schedule weekly to-do checkup time
-buy lingerie (ooo-la-la)
-schedule laundry
-sew laptop chargers onto cases
-organize makeup
-give away uncomfortable shoes
-put unused items into storage
-organize books for at-home or on-the-go
-lunch-making station
-defrost fridge
-spare change container
-find mini sunscreens

On Fire (63/1000)

Blindly followed a calling to open a place of healing
To teach what made me well
To give back what I received

Asked myself what I felt qualified to do
A need for hammer coaches?
I’d thrown pretty well in school
And learned a thing or two

If you follow the passions that move you
You end up just where you’re needed
What the universe needs is your energy
Six billion of us on fire

Your experiences shape your future
When you let life touch you, you open a door
I have never felt so needed
So blessed
And craving for so much more