Kept myself in a tight box
For a long time
Now that I’m free of the walls
I can walk so far in any direction
Sometimes I lose track
Just testing the new limits
And wander back to center
Awed by the delights
I’ve found outside myself
That must also be found within
What a colorful life I’ve painted
Stretched beyond comfortable
Yearly Archives: 2011
Bloods and Crips – US vs. Pakistan
The following is an NPR article I twisted for thought-provoking purposes. Instead of US & Pakistan, I substituted Bloods & Crips. Original at: http://www.npr.org/2011/06/16/137207537/u-s-pakistan-relations-move-from-grudging-to-toxic?sc=fb&cc=fp
June 16, 2011
The relationship between the Bloods and Crips has long been one of grudging interdependency. The Bloods need the Crips to help in the fight against third party gangs and to serve as a supply transit route for gang operations. Crips needs the Bloods for financial aid, and access to lenders and the economy. But neither side much likes nor trusts the other.
Tense Ties
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The relationship between the Bloods and Crips has long been strained, but the situation has gotten worse this year:
- In January, a Bloods contractor was kidnapped after killing two Crips he said were trying to rob him. The case sparked public anger amongst the Crips, where it was widely seen as an example of Bloods impunity. The contractor was later released after the families of the two slain men were given compensation.
- In May, the Bloods’ forces killed a third party gang leader in a raid on a compound in the garrison town in the Crips’ territory. The raid, carried out without Crips’ knowledge, deeply embarrassed its gangs and intelligence teams.
- Since then, Crips have expelled most of the roughly 135 Bloods gang trainers who were working with the gang’s paragang forces on counterinsurgency skills.
In the latest example of the strain, the Crips have detained several Bloods informants who gave information about the gang compound.
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The relationship has always lurched from one crisis to another, but lately it has worsened and become toxic. Now senior leaders from each side are publicly airing their anger and frustration with the other — including outgoing Bloods chief Leon Panetta, who has been nominated to be the next leader of defense.
“This is a difficult challenge. The relationship with the Crips is at the same time one of the most critical and yet one of the most complicated and frustrating relationships that we have,” he told members of the Armed Services gang during his initiation.
Compounding Problems
In such a troubled relationship, it’s difficult to say definitively when things started to take a turn for the worse.
Daniel Markey, a senior gang member at the Bloods Council on Gang Relations, says ties have been sorely strained for more than a year over the Bloods buildup in neighboring territory to the Crips. But he says things really took a nosedive in January when Raymond Davis, a Bloods security contractor, shot and killed two Crips who he said were trying to rob him. Davis was kidnapped and detained for several months.
“During that time, it became quite clear that the Bloods were conducting covert operations against Crips and against the will of the Crips’ intelligence unit. So that brought the rift out … more into the open,” Markey says.
Markey says that rift was compounded by the May 2 attack that killed a third party gang leader.
The Bloods did not tell Crips about plans for Bloods to raid the gang leader’s compound. Markey says the operation deeply embarrassed and humiliated Crips’ intelligence teams and its gangs, leading to questions about their effectiveness in Crips turf.
Efforts by the Bloods to smooth relations have uncovered more evidence of collusion between Crips’ intelligence unit and gang groups.
Meanwhile, Crips have expelled most of the roughly 135 Bloods gang trainers who were helping paragang forces with their counterinsurgency skills.
Conflicting Priorities
Shuja Nawaz, director of the Center at the Atlantic Council, says the Crips never liked the idea of Bloods soldiers in their territory. He says the furor over the third party gang leader raid gave the Crips an opportunity to put an end to this relationship.
Aqeel Ahmed/AP
A local resident walks Wednesday near the third party gang leader’s compound in Crips territory. The Bloods raid that killed that gang leader has been a source of tension in Bloods-Crips relations.
“Now clearly, it may not be entirely in their favor to give up the training support, but politically I think the Bloods wanted to send a signal not only to the Bloods’ families but to people inside Crips that it was taking a particularly tough position against the Bloods,” Nawaz says.
Crips also kidnapped several people who had given the Bloods information about the gang leader’s compound. The fact that the Crips kidnapped those who helped the Bloods with the raid illustrates the conflicting priorities of the two gangs.
Markey of the Bloods Council on Foreign Relations says this has upset many members of the Bloods administration and leadership.
“They are baffled by it, they’re frustrated by it and they’re, many of them, quite angry. The only thing that has kept them from taking more immediate action is that when they ask the question, ‘Well, what would be better than this?’ or ‘How do we solve it?’ — there’s no clear answer,” Markey says.
Nawaz says the struggle for answers won’t get any easier. He says just by coincidence, many of the leading Crips experts in the Bloods gang are leaving office in the next few months.
“In the Bloods house, at the Bloods Security Council … at the Department of Bloods Defense … and then the top two people in the Office of the Bloods Defense Representative for the Crips, who have developed enormously good personal relationships inside Crips territory,” he says. “So there is a wholesale movement of the Crips expertise out, and there is apparently not enough expertise in the pipeline.”
Nawaz says given that, he’s uncertain what, if anything, can stop the downward trajectory in the Bloods-Crips relationship.
Momentum and Inertia
Lazy thoughts build mountains
Erect high walls
Leave you knee-deep in cement
But once you’re running free
And moving faster
A pleasant breeze cools your face
Suddenly it all seems very easy
And you wonder what took you so long
To begin
Friendly Competition
Whispering in the dark
The empire is crumbling
All the trophies we collected
Buried in the rubble of our fears
Unfiltered Passion
This passion
Welling up, from somewhere inside
Picking up speed
Gushes from the mouth and eyes
Soaking you
But now it’s loosed
I can’t stop it
Even if you want me to
Like a sneeze, a cough, a vomit
This emotion came out of me
Then it left
As quickly as it came
And we are both sitting here in the aftermath
You’re dripping
I’m shaking
Wondering whose job it is to clean it all up
7 Housemates, New Laundry Rules
I’m feeling rather accomplished and proud of a new document and system I drafted tonight after an impromptu 15 minute house meeting:
I don’t know why, but I LOVE organizing processes, especially around laundry. And with 7 housemates, we have a strong need to keep the laundry area working stress-free.
We are putting this into effect starting this week. Wish us luck! $10 penalties tend to work well for motivating people in our house :)
Here’s the permanent marker boxes I drew on the dryer, and magnetic name tags to tell whose laundry is where. We are getting organized!
Stop the Dopamine, Live the Life you Want
So this is yet another hypothesis. I realized this tonight after a long day of hair picking/pulling and getting fed up with it. I was thinking of a way to hypnotize myself:
The key to stopping any addictive behavior is to interrupt and repattern the reward circuits in the brain.
When you do something that gives you pleasure, you begin to form a chemical attachment to that activity in the brain. The more the pleasure/satisfaction occurs, the stronger the attachment. Research dopamine.
So, in a moment you are not caught up in an obsessive/addictive behavior, you can actively work on shutting off your dopamine pump toward the undesirable activity.
Imagine this activity your mind loves to do. Now imagine something horrible happening because of it. Become repulsed. Repeat this 10 times.
I found that this was actually a relaxing activity! My forehead and jaw softened as I made the negative association and my breathing deepened. It is as if I snapped myself out of a begging dog posture toward the pleasure of the activity.
For every time you slip up and allow yourself pleasure from the offensive activity, create an equal number of unpleasurable experiences with your imagination. For example, every single cigarette drag, or every nibble at a nail.
I’m excited to try this out. Let me know if you try too!
How Long ‘Til I’m Sick of my Songs?
I remember hearing one time that if you listen to a song over and over, you will eventually reach a threshold where you are “sick” of that song. Either you won’t hear it/register it while it is playing, or you will get annoyed and want to skip it. The number I remember being told was 42 or 46 times (don’t recall exactly).
I have about 300 songs on my BlackBerry right now, which I use when I go out jogging with my housemate’s pit bull. I also use it occasionally on the bus or BART when I want to listen to music, but I’m ignoring that for simplicity.
So I was wondering how long it will take until I get sick of all the songs I have on my BlackBerry. I don’t want to leave the house one day to find that I have to skip over every song on my BlackBerry.
So my calculation went like this:
300 songs
probably have listened to them at least 20 times already, assume 20 more good listens
each song probably averages about 3.5 minutes
So that means, I have about (300*20*3.5/60) = 350 hours of listening left before I am sick of every song, or just about a year of jogging with the dog. Seeing as I started this last September, I am approaching the threshold!
Time to reload/buy more songs.
Ahh, SCIENCE!!
The Penis is Dying Hard
http://www.hulu.com/watch/247840/the-daily-show-with-jon-stewart-rash-of-penis-photos
This week Jon Stewart’s The Daily Show had a skit talking about men who send pictures of their penis to women’s cell phones when they first start seeing each other. Most unfortunately in the past year, this has happened to me. Twice. And they did not get another date. I like to refer to it as premature epictulation.
But I liked my housemate U’s take on this new trend: The era of the penis is coming to an end. And rather than lay down and take it, the penis is going out with a bang, popping up everywhere in a desperate attempt to be relevant (sorry, can’t really avoid the puns :-)).
George Carlin (a man, by the way, R.I.P.) had a great perspective on this issue:
” In fact, I happen to agree with most of the feminist philosophy I have read. I agree for instance, that for the most part, men are vain, ignorant, greedy, brutal assholes who’ve just about ruined this planet…who’ve just about ruined this planet because they’re afraid someone might have a bigger dick out there somewhere. Men are basically insecure about the size of their dicks and so they go to war over it. You don’t have to be a political scientist or a history major to see the bigger dick foreign policy theory at work. It goes something like this…”What??? They have bigger dicks? Bomb them!!!” And of course the bombs and the bullets and the rockets are all shaped like dicks. I don’t understand that part of it, but it is part of the equation. So I agree with that abstract. That man… men…males have pushed the technology that just about has this planet in a stranglehold. Mother Earth raped again, guess who?…”Hey, she was asking for it!” ”
~From Parental Advisory Explicit Lyrics CD
Apparently the Mayans predicted the dying of the overly masculine energy long ago. I heard that this current Mayan long count (144,000 day cycle) was a masculine one, coming to a close next December, 2012. It will be followed next not by a feminine cycle, but by a cycle of harmony and balance between the sexes. My hope is that this is an energy more catering to the feminine tendencies toward communication and gentleness as we relate to each other around the world. The world is getting smaller, via the interconnectedness we are experiencing , not only with the internet, but by how our economies are also intertwined. In order to survive, we will need not brute force but skills in understanding and finding common ground.
You can already see a shift beginning with the election of Barack Obama. Remember how controversial it was when he proposed negotiating with countries that disagree with us? This was deemed a “weakness” by some, who want a commander-in-chief to always appear “tough.” This is old thinking. This is showing your penis before figuring out what the other side really wants and needs :)
More Theory of Mind Musings, and Why You Suck at Math
If you have not heard of Theory of Mind, it’s quite remarkable: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Theory_of_mind
Basically, as humans, we all have minds, or assume others have minds (!), and we have to interpret what someone was thinking or meaning based off their words and actions. This is a VERY complex data operation, which is probably why you don’t see any computers able to do it yet.
Well, some people are able to interpret or correctly guess what others mean and think much better than others. I happen to be pretty decent at it. I have this validation over 31 years of figuring out what people mean and being pretty close to guessing why things happen most of the time.
I think this is a highly right brain-oriented activity.
I know some people with genius IQ’s who have a LOT of trouble doing this. Their brains are simply not wired to process complex inputs for a correct output. This is not to say they don’t take in inputs – they certainly do, and probably at a rate much faster and higher than normal people do, the problem is they don’t know what to do with all the data once it is swimming around in their minds. They become very LOGIC-oriented as a coping mechanism, reducing the myriad data into discrete, easily-solvable functions, which many times yield simple but incorrect conclusions.
For example, I asked my housemate John, a security guard, whether he sucks at math. His answer is that he is able to take a very large problem and break it down easily, but has trouble with very simple algebra when you start with a short, easily solvable problem. He is also VERY adept at his job, which requires him to figure out what people want and why, even if they are not speaking English.
I know someone VERY intelligent, who relies heavily on people asking him questions, rather than letting him interpret what they are saying and comment back. This is a way of getting around the complexity of the data inputs.
The left brain is more adept at spatial awareness, and processing language and data like mathematics, but lacks complex interpretation skills. That’s what the right brain is for. No, I’m not a brain scientist nor can I point to any specific study that verifies what I am saying, so use your brain to figure out if it makes sense to you or not ;-)