Do you lie awake at midnight
And wonder what errors
Might have driven love away
So close to completion

Another tower of babel?
God scattered our words
We misunderstood
Our union destroyed

Love don’t come easy
Trust is laid brick by brick
We made love on the altar
Before the mortar had dried

It held us for one night
Then cracked under the weight
Of misaligned hopes
And unsaid words

Then the wrath of our differences
Like a twisting typhoon
Destroyed the whole temple
Unsafe to return

My voice echoes off crumbled walls
And in the wreckage
Life goes on.

Reviewing
And rehashing
And finding out how much I value ethics
Especially when the outcomes affect hard working people
And so tired of consumerism
As much as I love fashion
And art
I’d love to see things done
For other than the almighty dollar
And the ethics of trading
And it’s ok to gamble on a house
Someone else’s future home
And their food and energy supply
Because hey! You could lose too.
Forget the fact that people have very basic needs
In order to prevent societal collapse
And everyone might be willing to work
But some might not like big risks at wrong times
In a country that rewards risk
The debt ceiling is forever raised
Because we’re good for it, we promise!
We’re not educating or taking care of our people anymore but you can count on us to come through!
Well, maybe a few will, and maybe they won’t love our country enough to take care of her
We’ve been isolated from each other a long time now
But we’re all chasing the dollar together
Waiting to be inspired
Excited
At the wealth our love could create
But we forgot how to love.

My heart is too powerful
My dreams too fanciful
To share with someone timid
If you insist on hiding behind your cock
Other women
Your work
Your mother
Your pounds of flesh
Your oh-so-interesting life
Don’t be surprised when I leave you to your affairs.

I have noticed
I’m restless around you
And you keep acting normal
Just going about your life
As if our synergy
Wouldn’t change everything!

At the end of the day
What I really really want
Is for you to be
Deliriously happy
Walking a path that challenges you
And gives you beauty and respite
A soft breeze,
And a stream of water for your weary feet
I’m sending out love vibes
Through the darkness
And the channels which connected us
Aeons ago
When we swung through trees
And sat in our shells in the mud
I’m summoning all the forces for good
In our Universe
And lifting you up to the sun for a recharge
So that although we can’t find our way to each other
Your soul will rest in the clouds while
Light fingers glide across your skin
Nails swirl through your scalp
Hands soft against your body
And you find a place of permanent bliss
Merged into our other
Sheltered from our storms

You shut down
Befriending the silence
A pleasant girlfriend
With no complaints
Fuck her silence
Perpetuates ignorance
Valium bliss
Earplugs in
No chance to hear
No way to listen
One has to shout
Or sit and pout
I want your heart
Right on the table
Can’t finish operating
You’ve stitched it up

Oh the wonderful twists and turns
Nothing left but gratitude
Writing the scenes while I act and direct
Or a wallflower
Living vicariously
Through herself?

That which I’m seducing
Stays hidden
For a time
To me
On the perimeter
While God prepares me to receive
Or give

I’m so far away from me
Yet we’ve come so far
What do I desire now?
What do I fear?
What can I love?
Who will receive?
How lucid is this dream?
Less wondering, more knowing.
Stay in the body.
This needs to be an earth-shattering orgasm.

Starting over
After three years of wondering what’s next
It’s go time
Make it great time
Recalling lessons learned
Because history repeats
Without vigilance, recording of errors, and deliberate different action
Thankful for friends
And wise lovers
It’s a better start already…

Yesterday
I fell in love with you
All over again
Like I was seeing you for the first time
Drinking in from a distance
The hard lines of your face
The thoughts that must wrestle

Your gentle, dreamy rare smile
That turns up your mouth
Your biceps and warm body against me
As we danced out in the sun
My heart as it broke all over again
At the distance that I had created

Feeling Sorry
My rejection was not of your love
Our love is deep and pure
But a need to shut out the world again
So I could remember who I am, what I do

You set me sailing on this new course
But I had to exhaust what love was not
It was not for disappearing into

Your love draws me in so close
I just never want to leave
Like a junkie I keep coming back
When I should be out doing some good

And your strength to refuse me
Consistently
It hurts
It’s detox
I seethe and I fight it with words that might sting
But I’ll thank you
When I can finally stand with you in my own.