Today we celebrated
Loving, loving, loving
Don’t often practice
Loving, loving, loving
I pet my cat
Loving, loving, loving
Like a river moving through me
Loving, loving, loving
It opens up to you
Loving, loving, loving
Carving wider through my being
Loving, loving, loving
That we could always be
Loving, loving, loving
I feel my insides heal
Loving, loving, loving

Numbed by the weight of my inaction
I feel so uncourageous
There’s an expression in me
Which begs to be revealed
In 24/7 full glory
Life is too short
To keep the lid on
Dare to be different
Gain a friend in yourself

Hanging from the edge of a cliff I’ve created
A foothold I’ll find but it’s nowhere in sight
Tired of being pushed by the forces that move me
Probably just tired
And drained by the sun

Maybe the ending badly is a symptom of starting badly
Life is short and I’m so quick to love
Someday a big heart’s going to value a heart
That opens so wide in front of them

Some loves are like taxis
They take you there
Then drop you off once you’ve paid the fare
And you wonder what the driver’s going to do
In the lifetime they’ll spend apart from you

And in swimming through a sea of bodies
Rare are shells that turn your head
On a midsummer night
Under the moon
When all you want is a heart to walk with yours

They’ve scattered like mice
And new moths to the light
Are drawn by the fire
I’ve stoked from within

God bless the women
Who purge the world’s pain
Through their bodies and tears
Holding men’s hearts until the beating stops

I have a sneaking suspicion I’ve had it wrong all along
That’s why swimming in chaos and wine feels so sweet
The delicious feeling of living at last
Where the plan and the moment merge into one
The present and the past diverging so fast
My lovers don’t know whether to bite or bring toys
Pouring over every card in the deck
The Aces show up when they will
Creating more memories of the real me
Takes time
And now time’s all I have

Love’s a great excuse to get high
I’ll never forget the way your eyes
Morphed black to brown
And you broke down
When I said I knew your heart

And he said…
“I’ve traveled through 47 states
We stopped in Nebraska
I was there for 5 days
And my friend
She had to have an abortion
And people there are against it
And we called the doctor
Planned Parenthood
And he gave her an appointment for
Three in the morning
Like we were in the middle east
And I wonder,
Can you tell me?
Which is the real America?
Is that the real America?”

I told him
It’s all America

Nixie, nixie
Colored blocks
Clouds condense and spill their guts
Building up for grand release
Running faster than time works
Learn to dance when music plays
Raining money, laughing loud

I’m grinning ear to ear
Sex: the final vast frontier
Getting in the habit
Of doing what I want
Getting clear on what I need
Sitting deeply in my fears
Talking out what makes me timid
Reeling from the years of always
Denying what I feel
In favor of what would be right
Letting others make my choices
So I didn’t have to think
Now I stand on my two feet
Feeling happy, free, and proud

I’m sorry
But it seems
Our life was but a dream
That we both dared to dream once
Then it all just fell apart
But I can’t let go of you
I got too near