Pacified (33/1000)

The pacifier is back in my ears
Played a game of disinterest
For too many years
It wasn't my game, but I got comfortable with it
Now to sit with a stranger
My mind races for words
Not sure of what suits the moment
The energy
I'm playing a new game
Where I'm guessing the rules
But music I can dance with

Soldiers of Peace (31/1000)

Misery was my steady companion
It missed me
So it jumped on my back
Seducing me
With its heavy blanket
Started whispering in my ear
Warping my thoughts
And twisting his words
I was finally happy
But it would have nothing of it
Sad felt grounding…
Comfortable…
Normal…
So I sank with it
Down just one step
Then two, then three
And soon found myself
Covered in despair
Thinking thoughts that felt foreign,
Petty, senseless, and desperate
So thank God for a friend
Who went there with me
And listened to my bewildered musings
Until the truth came to light
Of the load I was under
That I had put on myself
To wrongly feel good
So I threw off my misery
For the second time this year
And felt happy and free
And hopeful again
Now I see
More clearly
That normal is different
I must be vigilant
And guard my new happiness
With every soldier of peace that I’ve got

Depressed (28/1000)

The last raindrops of the evening
Drip on me
With the energy of my ambitions
For the day
He doesn't know
How much energy he stirs in me
How many lives
He has already altered
I was a hurricane in a bottle
For so many years
Protected
And I'm sick of stirring alone
I want to stir things up
All around me
I want you to feel me everyday
And if you don't feel it too
I need to run away now
Because it aches to be apart
But it aches more to live without your touch
I'm a top that you set spinning
And now I'm wobbling
With no intention of falling over

Super Massive Hangover (27/1000)

How do you explain to a person
How it feels to be knocked off your orbit
Hurtling through dark space
Fascinated by the glowing orbs all around you?
How do you tell your dealer
He's got the sweetest drugs you've ever tasted
And expect him not to double the price
The moon's in Taurus
I asked for your Sadge
What did I expect, a fucking tea party?

More (26/1000)

Just keep writing
A brain purge
Stuffed my mind with chemicals
And now it's surging
What kind of fool
Reveals her weaknesses?
One that needs help
And cries to the winds
The shock of the city
Jolted my silence
The rush of endorphins
Ended my innocence
And it goes on…