Burning the oil I need for later
Racing to finish
Against myself
Not really knowing
What energy moves me
Why I come back again and again
Trying to keep myself from destruction
When chemicals fight the fire I flame

Closer then farther
Connect and dissolve
Inside but calling out
Done or beginning

A day of delays
A pale foggy sunset
Glows peach behind an old twisted tree
On a desolate hill
In my troubled mind
Waiting for the music to wake me up

Understanding influences
Sugar, planets, hormones
Still they move me
Thought too close to action

We all want change
But no one wants to change
It hurts to smile
When you’re dressed in sadness
But it’s not about you
It never was
Your grief is a smokescreen
That hides you from love

Trillions of keystrokes
Information downpour
Packets of light
Pooling and clumping
Bouncing or hiding
Should we be mirrors
Or stew for a while?
Add our own color
Or pass the potato?

What do you believe?
It takes less energy
to believe in abundance
I don’t have to hold on tightly
It’s not a new thought
It’s a path that’s been tread
Sincerely, joyfully, confidently
A choice to live in hope
Rather than fear
A fake-it-till-u-make-it
Reliance on the law
That giving turns you on
To opportunity
While holding back
Slows the progress

All this talent
And no one wants to run for office
The best and the brightest
Are chasing paper
Deceiving the masses
They once called neighbors
Our physical walls get taller and thicker
You can’t hear me in your car
You can’t talk to me with headphones
Who gives a shit what they do
You’re not like me
Greed spreads like a virus
And we all fall down

Slumping at your schooldesk
A gunman appears
The universe rips right next to you
You play dead until he leaves
Classmates you could have known
Are frozen in your memory
You walk around
With a 5-person-sized hole by your side
A deep dark void
Alone right on the precipice
You wonder if you might fall in again
Our souls like magnets
Even with strangers

I don’t know any better way to live
Even if it’s all a dream
Even if it kills me
I can’t imagine living without love
Without an open heart
Keeping your defenses up
Is a waste of time and energy
Give until it hurts
Then give a little more
What is to regret
When you gave them all a chance to shine?