The Little Things – Journaling and Allergy

I put my project manager hat back on today for my new consulting gig, and came across something I did at Chevron that I had forgotten about: Daily Journals. Every day, I would take the time to summarize the day’s activities. We had an internal calendar, so this was a duplication+expansion of that.

This is something that has been sorely missing from my “professional life” the past few years. I got as far as making excel task sheets for my various ventures, but not the simple act of daily journaling/reflection, which is probably more important in the long run, as it informs the tasks and makes you take stock on a more regular basis, giving you opportunity to learn and adapt.

I also took another 3 hour nap today, as I did on Sunday. Since my trip to Turlock, I started experiencing what I think others would call “allergies”, where my throat and nose close up so that I can’t take in a full breath. I wonder if it’s because we took a side route through almond orchard country between manteca and ripon, and I got a ton of pesticide/ag chemical exposure due to having the AC on full blast for the heat last week. Anyway, I did not enjoy the feeling of not being able to breathe. Not one bit. Our athletic trainer’s eyes were red and watery the whole trip too. I am feeling much better now that I’m back in Berkeley, and I find that eliminating gluten, lactose, and caffeine seems to make it get better, and makes me feel more healthy (I started to store more fat over the weekend as well).

Tips for Sleeping Better

Sleeping Health

These are some things I have learned over the years to help myself sleep like a baby. FYI, though I mention a little science, it’s from personal experience and from memory, and is subject to errors. Feel free to correct me. This is not a researched article.

I took a three-hour nap today. It was awesome. I welcome your comments to make this even better!

Key Points:

  1. Sleep in the right position(s) with the right cushions
  2. Make sure the temperature and air flow works for you
  3. Work with the melatonin/cortisol cycles
  4. Work with the light/dark cycles
  5. Manage your activity and eating to prepare the mind and body for good sleep
  6. Keep the body flexible and healthy to avoid cramping at night

Sleeping Posture

It is ideal that your muscles rest in a neutral position to avoid creating aches and pains that can wake you up or disturb your quality of life while you are awake. Lying in a prone position (on your belly) at night can be fine, as long as the bed is not too soft or your pillow too high to create a deep arch in the low back.

Lying on the back is fine, but avoid using too thick of a pillow or you may lose some of the natural cervical spinal curve in the neck. You may not really need a pillow at all when lying on the back. Too soft of a bed may also cause the hips to sink too far down into the bed, so one can use pillows to support the hips if the mattress cannot be exchanged. Sometimes pillows placed under the knees can take pressure off the low back. It is recommended to stretch the front of your legs in the morning if pillows are used under the knees, however.

Side-lying positions can be really ideal. Wisdom from yogic traditions tells us that sleeping on the right side is the most conducive to falling asleep quickly. While you sleep on the right side, the left nostril opens for breathing. Having the left nostril open correlates to right brain stimulation, which is more likely to lead to a sleeping state.

In a side-lying position, a pillow should be kept between the knees to keep the knees in line with the hips. A pillow (or two) should be placed under the head to keep the head in line with the spine. How many pillows you use depends on how wide the shoulders are and how soft your bed is. Also, a pillow can be encircled with the arms in front to keep the elbow in horizontal line with the shoulder, to prevent the shoulders from collapsing forward too much while you sleep.

Body Temperature

Most people are comfortable sleeping with the temperature around 60-70 degrees, but this depends on the amount of heat the body releases at night. Some bodies will give off more heat than others.

If you get too hot while you sleep, you may not sleep comfortably. It is recommended to use linens and clothing that allow air circulation to your skin, such as cotton. Tighter-woven linens or manufactured fabrics may prevent air circulation so if you get too hot at night, try using lighter cotton sheets with a lower thread count or change clothing to natural fibers to allow the skin to breathe.

Muscles can also get too cold if exposed to cold, circulating air at night, and can cause muscle cramping. If you wake up with sore muscles, try shutting off fans at night that blow directly across the skin, or cover the sensitive, exposed skin with clothing.

Body Rhythms

In terms of hormones, the cortisol/melatonin cycle determines when we feel awake and when we feel sleepy. Cortisol is depleted during the day and melatonin levels rise. When melatonin levels peak, we feel most sleepy and need to rest. During rest, cortisol levels climb and melatonin is depleted. At peak cortisol, the body awakens.

Sleep can be disturbed when the melatonin/cortisol balance is disturbed. Often stress will throw off the cortisol balance during the day.

Stress causes the adrenals to release more cortisol during the day. After a cortisol release, the body naturally wants to exercise, then rest to increase your melatonin to balance the stress/cortisol spikes. Managing your stress is an important factor in being able to keep your body rhythms on cycle.

Light Cycles

UV light also plays a part in sleep rhythms. The body becomes stimulated by light and sleepy in the dark. Sleep can be disturbed by too much exposure to blue light or UV light too close to bedtime. If you have trouble sleeping and live in a climate with sunlight in the evening, it may help to wear sunglasses in the few hours before bed to start to trick the body into thinking night is coming. Use an eye cover if you are trying to sleep and become aware of too much light.

There are also software programs that dim your computer screen so that not as much blue light reaches the eyes after a certain time of day. Although zoning out to tv images can help you wind down, it is not recommended to watch the television before sleeping because it can be light-stimulating, and if it is left on, sound is the first thing that usually disturbs someone’s sleep.

Keeping your bedtime consistent is the easiest way to keep your body rhythms on track.

Preparing the Body for Sleep – Winding Down

During deep REM sleep, the muscles of the body are completely relaxed (not being sent messages by your brain to fire), and the brain and thoughts are uncontrolled by the conscious mind. Therefore, if you wish to fall asleep, it is wise to prepare the body for this state and not expect it to just automatically shut down on your command.

Ideas to relax the body:

  • Do not stimulate the body for 2-3 hours before you wish to sleep. Stimulating activities include exercise with exertion, or taking in substances which stimulate the body (caffeine, sugary, spicy foods, etc.)
  • Take a warm bath or shower. Again, avoid stimulation, so not too hot and not too cold.
  • Magnesium is the relaxation mineral. You could take a magnesium/calcium supplement an hour before bedtime to aid the muscles in relaxation if your diet is low in magnesium.
  • Don’t eat a whole meal in the 2 hours before bed. Digestion shuts down somewhat while you sleep and you will wake up feeling like things are fermenting in your stomach instead of digesting (because they are!)
  • Actively tense and relax each muscle group before bed to ensure the muscles all feel relaxed

Ideas to relax the mind:

  • Do not stimulate the mind in the hour before you wish to sleep. Avoid hyperfocused activities and activities which produce anxiety, like tasks which require decisions or concentration.
  • Listen to calming music, not stimulating music
  • Learn mental relaxation techniques to release attachments to thoughts and worries. The more you can let your mind be free and let your thoughts swirl around and weave together without your controlling them, the better you can approximate what the unconscious brain does while you dream. Allow your thoughts to not make sense right before you want to sleep, just lay back and enjoy the show!

Keep the body supple and make resting a habit:

An overworked and under-rested body will tend to cramp up at night. Take time throughout the day to incorporate resting between periods of working and sleep will come much more easily. Learn a daily stretching routine that helps you relax and lengthen your muscles to their optimal resting length. Incorporate non-pattered movements into your day to avoid hyper-focusing the muscles on any one activity. Mix it up!

Easily Disturbed

The more I learn/notice, the more my mind is blown.  I really don’t understand how people just walk around this planet and take it all for granted and hold it all together mentally. It makes me feel either really smart, or really stupid: Smart, that I’ve caught onto something so profound in the mundane, or stupid, that I should take it for granted that it’s profound and go along with it like I’m supposed to be paying attention to something else of greater profundity, or indulging in hedonism.

In looking for and at patterns, I reflect on what my life is manifesting. In times of chaos, I look for signs, directions, currents. I find myself back in a pattern of sorts, that makes me feel young/retarded at an older age. Again, six years into a new “place.” Trying not to tell myself any stories. Noticing who and what is around me. Clearing my paradigms, so that I can avoid the trappings of the One who tells the worst disturbing stories to me. Excited for the opportunities that lay ahead of me, and the chance to reinvent myself, yet again. The chance to recreate new routines, to align myself a little more closely with the parts of the universe which delight me. To get rid of the mismatching, shabby old curtains that someone else picked out, that I got used-to. To travel.

Feeling the upheaval of my next transformation, in a single phone call, where someone hadn’t communicated with me their intention very well, then offers me something I don’t want and assumes me to be like something I am not, and then I have to decide what to be and what to want all over again, and it overwhelms me. I don’t know who I am nor what I want right now. I only vaguely know what I don’t want. There is no yellow brick road, and I’m lost. The wisest people I knew understood a lot of my life would be about collecting experiences. But did they know how frustrating that would feel? And that I would search for answers in really dark places, and feel so isolated that I would want to make something magical out of the nothings that would flutter by, and experience such highs and lows as a result?

Someone old enough to know, listening to my story last week: “Oh! You’re a student!” Yes, it seems so. A student with a bad case of “usefulness-wanting disorder”, or “Anti-art disease”, or “process distrust,” or SOMETHING. If #winning at life requires deep-diving into an object of devotion, I am surely not #winning. I am Gemini-ing. Rejecting un-awesomeness at every turn, without feeling like I’m creating much awesomeness of my own, though there are glimpses. Taking with not much feeling-offered. Being hard on myself. Still getting my bearings. Still learning how to give. And take. Appropriately. And with authenticity. And to communicate.

I must trust, that, if humanity allowed me to be spawned from it, that ya’ll would be really the most happy if I just did what came the most natural and easy to me and made the most sense, in a 20/20 hindsight kinda way. Whatever the hell that is. And I don’t want you to tell me any more anyway.

Perhaps the lesson for the student tonight was simply: Don’t take caffeine on an empty stomach. You have a delicate mood, and it is easily disturbed. Now go to bed.

Power Dynamics and the Danger of Passiveness

A wife is loyal to her husband, even though he beats her and abuses his children.

An employee is loyal to the company, even though the organization is failing and the cause of the problem is well-known.

A citizen is loyal to a leader, even though he is a tyrant who causes mass amounts of suffering.

Parenting methods reinforce people’s response to authority. OBEY vs. QUESTION. Therefore, proper parenting, that is, parenting a child as if that child would later be taken on by tyrannical parents, is in society’s best interest.

Proper parenting is like creating a constitution within a person’s mind that limits future destructive powers. It’s powerful :-) Coaches and mentors have opportunities to do what parents cannot for children in these departments as well.

We cannot afford, as a society, to become a nation of tyrants/bullies and passive loyalists.

The Awesomeness of Specificity (Explicit)

Just realized how marvelous it is that I have a friend I can call just to have phone sex with every so often. This is a very special situation that requires several factors to align: a previous hot physical relationship with enough spice and variety for some good content and connection, we know what the other likes and what turns them on. We haven’t seen each other in about 1.5 years (moved). He’s got a sexy voice, likes to talk a lot, and keeps a schedule that lines up pretty well with my needs. And neither one of us wants an in-person relationship with the other nor bothers the other person too frequently.

These are the kinds of expressive thoughts that probably prove I’m unsuitable for traditional marriage.

But! I think it’s really neat when someone can fit a specific need in your life so well. That takes a lot of investment, luck, acceptance of what works and what does not, etc., and ultimately is a thing of beauty and art. Yay.

What Can We Do About Climate Change?

A report written in 1992 (reference bottom of article) provides clear insight as to what needs to be done to prevent total destruction of our environment and way of life as we know it. My take on it, for current conditions:

  • Overcome power of vested interests
  • Build strong institutions
  • Improve knowledge
  • Encourage participatory decisionmaking
  • Partnership between developing and developed countries (i.e. bridge resource gap between haves and have-nots)
  • Communicate that protecting the environment will lead to MORE wealth, not less
  • Keep working on programs that reduce poverty (i.e., provide fair opportunities to access resources)
  • Clarify property rights
  • Expand access to education, birth control, sanitation & clean water, and agriculture
POINT ZERO: Agree on a target. We need to get Atmospheric CO2 back to 350ppm. ASAP.

1) Overcome power of vested interests

Who are these powerful vested interests? In the US, money controllers in oil, coal, power-generation companies, and their paid political agents. The Chinese government and others, like the Indian government, are pressured to increase the living standards of their poor to avoid revolution. They are doing this through unchecked environmental exploitation, and the US is complicit in accepting Chinese products at their borders.

What is being done to overcome their power?

Movements such as the Federal and CA Disclose Act are trying to pass legislation that would make money ties more transparent so that voters can better elect true representatives and make more informed votes on referendums.

Nothing is *really* being done to stop the exploitation of resources.

2) Build Strong Institutions

Institutions appear to be failing, as they fall more and more into private hands. Take our universities and medical institutions: Directors are paid insane salaries, bigger and better buildings are built, costs are going up to users exponentially, and less and less value is provided to those who need to use or work in the institutions. We are not getting smarter or healthier in the “old style” of institutions.

New institutions will come from actually creating value for users and workers. This is in infant stages around the country. I think of coworking places like HUB, and local wellness office collaborations and cooperative businesses.

New institutions will need to meet the needs of a mobile workforce, a greater % of poor people, etc.

3) Improve Knowledge

It’s hard to know where to go to find trusted knowledge, with the internet available to us today. Education projects like Coursera are extremely important in passing on information. There are no more trusted centers for information. We seek out experts on our own time, scrutinize them and trust what they say, and who our social networks refer us to. We use review systems like Yelp to help build a trust base for information sources.

4) Encourage Participatory Decision-Making

After moving to California from Montana, I was amazed at how many initiatives/propositions Californians were asked to vote about in local and state elections. Montana is now catching up, from what I hear. But we must find a balance between what the people can vote on and get educated about, and what our elected representatives should do, even nationally. I think when America was founded, it was necessary to send a representative to the White House because we could not instantaneously communicate with the people he would be meeting with nor be informed of all the issues they were considering. We trusted someone to take our issues into consideration. We live in a different world now, and we need to be more individually empowered in decisions of national and social importance. What is being done about this? I don’t know.

Let’s do something!!

5) Partnership between developed and developing countries

Obama has done a lot to improve our relations with the rest of the world. To be honest, this is the main reason I campaigned for his election and re-election. This is so important to keep improving relations at this point in time, no matter what else he has or hasn’t accomplished, it has been worth it to me just for this.

Unfortunately, no one in a position of power is demonstrating the balls/courage right now to step up as a world leader to change their  country’s economic policies enough to discourage carbon use at the rate we need to, to avoid mass poverty, chaos, and destruction on a larger global scale.

We are being told that change on this issue will come from the ground up. That is, developing countries, and those NOT in power will need to initiate change/partnership.

Those with the most to lose may have to band together to be their own heroes this time.

6) Communicate that the right environmental policies will create MORE wealth, not less

I’ve seen smatterings of this, but it needs to be more widely shoved into social media collective mind. How does changing our policies make us BETTER OFF FINANCIALLY?!?

Clean up the messaging and get it out.

7) Keep expanding programs to reduce poverty

This is helping (For example, I was able to escape poverty by means of social programs, BUT the best economic decision available for me out of college was to jump into an oil company). Where are the economic opportunities in things that do not destroy our environment? Yes, keep giving poor kids like me a hand-up. But give us a hand-up into something meaningful and helpful.

Economic advantages (subsidies, tax breaks) for oil companies must be taken away and given to cleaner fuels.

This became really unpopular after it was revealed that  a giant solar company failed with public money authorized by Obama. This is really stupid and underscores the public’s ignorance about entrepreneurship and technology development. THERE WILL BE FAILURE BEFORE THERE WILL BE SUCCESS. WE HAVE TO PAY FOR FAILURE TO GET TO SUCCESS. How many billions of dollars do we waste on worthless failed medical drug research each year, while nobody complains too much about the $600/month the state of California pays health institutions on behalf of EACH OF ITS EMPLOYEES for “health care”, 20-25% of which probably goes to subsidize such failed research. Money motivates ingenuity. Throw a billion-dollar X-Prize at Carbon Alternatives and see what we get, in a very short amount of time.

The public needs to be educated on what developing new technologies will cost them and what they will gain.

8) Clarify property rights

Poverty is forcing the hands of countrymen around the world and property is being whored out to the highest bidder. Countries are giving up their food and water rights along with their property. This is going to result in violence down the road. Buyers and sellers need to learn to relate to each other with some decency and foresight. Who is entitled to what property?

This seems like a government policy thing. Lobby for policy change, or demand property rights at a grassroots level.

9) Expand access to education, birth control, sanitation & clean water, and agriculture

I believe that traditional college learning is going by the wayside. People are getting priced and sized-out. Crowd-sourcing of education (again, Coursera is a pioneer in this, online telesummits, etc.) will be what will truly expand access to education. 30,000 people took a free course I signed up for last summer. This is “access to education” on a meaningful scale.

Even the extremist groups in the US keep threatening to shut down access to services like Planned Parenthood, etc. This is retarded and thankfully Americans see the need. Donate to keep these clinics open if you can. They are really wonderful places, from personal experience.

Sanitation and clean water goes hand-in-hand with poverty. Pollution plays a (small?) part too.

Agriculture seems to be going the way of decentralizing as a trend. People realize how risky it is to depend on megacrops thousands of miles away, and depend on the chaos of centralized, privatized success of megacrops (which comes with side-effects of pollution and greed and speculation profit) and the chaos of failure (which comes with disease and price hikes). Crops are going more local as a trend, but this needs to be done faster.

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Inspired by:

“The World Development Report 1992, “Development and the Environment,” discusses the possible effects of the expected dramatic growth in the world’s population, industrial output, use of energy, and demand for food. Under current practices, the result could be appalling environmental conditions in both urban and rural areas. The World Development Report presents an alternative, albeit more difficult, path – one that, if taken, would allow future generations to witness improved environmental conditions accompanied by rapid economic development and the virtual eradication of widespread poverty. Choosing this path will require that both industrial and developing countries seize the current moment of opportunity to reform policies, institutions, and aid programs. A two-fold strategy is required.

* First, take advantage of the positive links between economic efficiency, income growth, and protection of the environment. This calls for accelerating programs for reducing poverty, removing distortions that encourage the economically inefficient and environmentally damaging use of natural resources, clarifying property rights, expanding programs for education (especially for girls), family planning services, sanitation and clean water, and agricultural extension, credit and research.

* Second, break the negative links between economic activity and the environment. Certain targeted measures, described in the Report, can bring dramatic improvements in environmental quality at modest cost in investment and economic efficiency. To implement them will require overcoming the power of vested interests, building strong institutions, improving knowledge, encouraging participatory decisionmaking, and building a partnership of cooperation between industrial and developing countries.”

http://info.worldbank.org/etools/docs/library/206921/CarbonTaxestheGreenhouseEffectandDevelopingCountries.pdf

 

And of course: An Inconvenient Truth (2006)

Beyond Human

Back again, as though I never left
Still does not compute
Begs a new definition
Is it this?
Is it that?
Enough

Why can’t it just be a European romance
No plans and no promises
Things work out so beautifully and perfectly
And you just dance
Until the song ends
Then you part when it stops working
Unceremoniously as it began
And thank God that you had what you had

While someone watching the movie version cries
Crying
For things that aren’t forever
And things that aren’t perfect
And things that aren’t safe
Wishing to be,
Themselves,
Beyond human.

Latest Climate Change Data

These are my notes from the Lawrence Berkeley National Laboratory talk last night (prone to errors of interpretation):

The latest intergovernmental climate report will be coming out in January 2014.

2012 was the hottest year on record.

CO2 emissions were steady at 270 ppm before the steam engine. Now they are over 350ppm, haven’t been that high since 3 million years ago. We are on track for 750ppm, haven’t seen that for 34 million years, when Antarctica was created.

Clear link between atmospheric CO2 and temperature rise.

Emissions are 56% higher today than in 1991. Rio Earth Summit held in 1992. Kyoto Protocol in 1997. 2013 was the 18th meeting of parties to discuss climate change. Action is not being taken.

Historical emissions have committed us to warming consequences 25 years out. Effects from changes made now will be seen after year 2035.

California has pleged to not raise its emissions through 2020 as of legislation in effect January 2013, and an order by Schwarzenegger would reduce emissions by 80% in CA by 2020.

Warming planet raises deadly storm frequency and severity, increases both floods and droughts, increase fire danger risk, insect and pathogen outbreaks. As planet warms, permafrost thaw releases even more carbon as organic decomposition takes off. This is not accounted for in climate models, and raises carbon by as much as 20 percent.

Deadly weather, costing dozens of thousands of deaths, has been seen in Europe 2003, Russia 2010, Texas 2011.

50% carbon stays in atmosphere, 25% absorbed by forests, and 25% absorbed by oceans. Oceans are becoming more acidic, which destroys shells of sea creatures and coral reef habitats. Trees are keeping up with their share of absorption, but at what cost?

320 million trees killed in Katrina storm, equal to the net gain in US forests annually.

Climate ecnomist suggests taxing use of carbon minimum $20/ton (some suggest $100/ton) to encourage consumers to leave carbon in the ground and develop smarter alternatives. Get top 20 countries to agree to tax carbon for its real cost.

The top two emitters of CO2 are US and China. China’s coal alone is equal to our total emissions (we export some coal to China).

Geoengineering to cool the planet is like applying a 3,000 year bandaid. Need to leave the carbon in the ground.

There is 4 times more carbon in oil/coal reserves than our trees can soak up. More trees is not the answer.

The risks to our food supply are serious. Crops are growing in ideal conditions. Temp rise as little as 2 degrees can impact yields. Temp is projected to rise as much as 15 degrees with no action taken against carbon.

“If we don’t do something, the major export from some of these hungry countries will be violence.”

 

For more information, check out Lawrence Berkeley National Laboratory, or UCTV, where you may find links to a video of the talk with climate scientists.

Lover Diaries

23 year-olds are like puppies: Have to train them and say no to them all the time, but hard cuz they’re so cute and full of energy.

Love that someones calls me “Charlene” and says stuff like, “We’re going to Costa Rica, Charlene.”

Probably had fair warning: “I piss off all the women I date so, no, I don’t have stalkers.” And, nearly every story ending with, “and then they said, ‘You’re an asshole!'”

“I can’t go back to the Mission, people want to kill me there. I’m moving to Portland for a while.”

“All my exes live in the Mission.”

So…I guess I’m finally to that age where you start asking men if they wanna make frozen embryos with you…