20/20 Vision Restored Naturally (update)

I had a step-change in my vision this week which was really exciting and actually pretty emotional.

I discovered the important concept of “trying” to see without straining. It was important to make an effort to have distant objects come into focus. The eyes are used to being passive and letting the glasses/contacts focus the image so they aren’t used to working. The key point here is, however, that healthy eyes don’t FEEL like they’re working when they are working. It FEELS effortless and yet there is focus involved.

It kind of reminds me of what I thought at the time was a kind of hippie, bullshit pamphlet I paid for at a health fair several years ago that described a system of “exercise without effort”. The guy was so nice and sincere and the concept was so wacky I felt it was worth paying for it, if only for entertainment value.

Turns out restoring your vision involves exercise without effort, or at least without strain. Thinking about it another way, why would you want to have to strain all the time to see normally? You don’t want to practice feeling that way if you don’t want it to be a permanent condition.

What is happening when I practice seeing distant objects without strain is that my eyes water more and I blink more frequently. I also feel the need to stretch out my jaw more. Sometimes that leads to yawning, which waters my eyes more. Somehow my jaw tension is related. Once it is more relaxed, I see better. My dentist tells me every 6 months that my jaw muscles are too tight and I’m grinding my teeth. I also get better results when smiling and imagining that distant objects are easy to see, counteracting the info my brain is telling me that they are blurry.

Anyway it’s pretty exciting. I’ve noticed the most change first thing in the morning. I can see things across the room slightly sharper, almost like a double image, where before they’d just be a blur.

But it is full time work to blink frequently and not let distant objects register as blurry. I can see why it is recommended to take several days off for every few days of work.

We Don’t Want to Work Harder

“Slavery created conditions in the South not unlike those for the Irish in Ireland. A crucial fact for both groups is that labor did not produce value for the worker, and so hard work was not initially a cultural value for either group. The work of the slave resulted in gain only for the slave owner…”

“The minimum wage in 2009 is only 73% of what it was in 1968 in real dollars.”

from Intelligence and How to Get It, Richard E. Nisbett

Hmmmm

Might this explain the modern college graduate, disillusioned by their parents’ generation’s “hard work” not paying off for the family?

And employers wonder why things other than pay are important to this generation (time freedom, for example). We want to work smarter, not harder. We’ve been shown that our hard work generates income for employers, not for us.

Not unlike the work of slaves…

Educate Others

It’s not enough to be well-educated anymore. We have a responsibility to make sure those around us are not ignorant.

Why?

Because internet content and media “coverage” is now being delivered to us on a “pull” basis. Whatever the majority demands is what we all get exposed to.

We have to raise our lowest common denominator to get higher quality information delivered to us.

This is why experiments like www.coursera.org are so important. Free higher education for the masses can only help us now in escaping the whirlpools of ignorance and its capsizing currents of unnecessary drama. Imagine what humankind could experience…

Ego-go Trip

It took six years
To unravel myself
Peeled layer after layer
Tried on costume after costume
Plunged myself in boiling water
Let go every ounce of control
Until I was naked
On a stage
With only my guitar
And a sense of faith and guidance

I can only *be* from here

Vanity

As we come closer together
I wonder
Is there any more need for poetry?
Does it obscure more than it shows?
Is it a light or is it shadow?
More connections live in metaphors
Keeping the mystery alive

Freedom, emotion, and statistics :-)

Fascinating discussion being had today as part of my Intro to Sociology course taught by a Princeton professor (www.coursera.org). It’s bringing up some concepts I’ve been meditating on recently, namely freedom, complicated environments, and probabilities.

Pavel, a student from Siberia noted the Stalin quote: “The death of one man is a tragedy. The death of millions is a statistic.” Pavel asked, “Why doesn’t our government, when communicating with its people, tell the story of one woman and her tragedies, rather than quoting statistics?”

I thought, Barack Obama did this very well. He understands that most people lead simple lives and are more touched emotionally by drama than by statistics! This is also what CNN understands and the rest of the media, entertainment businesses, cable TV, advertising, etc.  DRAMA, DRAMA, DRAMA!! People are very comfortable/familiar with drama. This is also where Kerry went wrong. Once you become very educated, you can lose touch with the emotional side and the drama of life. I feel I have the best of both worlds. I feel very educated, but it leads me to a place of reverence, poetry and beauty, as if I get to attend a private studio session with God and watch him work on a great work of art. That to me is sociology. Those less emotionally inclined (or I might argue, emotionally repressed) would say that information would lead you to a place of dry statistics.

The essay we read said that people feel trapped by their circumstances until they develop a sociological imagination. Until we can have an understanding of the environment which brought about our circumstances, we can feel that we are victimized, or have fewer options.

The flip side of entrapment, of course, would be freedom, and empowerment.

It was nice to see the entire spectrum covered. It seems, the less you know, the more drama you experience in your life, the more fearful you will be of the unknown forces that are rocking your little boat on the big ocean. However, on the other end of the spectrum, when you fully understand all the reasons for interplay in your environment, you can become an unbiased observer, free from the confusion of emotional entanglements (but I would argue that emotions are another source of information to be understood).

The professor noted that it is necessary to learn more about your environment so that you can decipher truth from illusion. Some of the other students later brought up the question of how much of society is illusion and how much is truth. So if we agree that illusions are mostly conceived in fear, traps, and ignorance, then truth can be found in the domain of  courage, freedom, and education.

That’s about all I have energy for today :-)

Moving On

So this garage sale today ended up being somewhat therapeutic. I was able to sell a lot of things I’ve had packed as storage from my former life as an engineer 6+ years ago. Specifically, I parted with a lot of kitchen stuff that I was always saving up for that special someone I would move in with who might need my kitchen supplies.

I also decided to part with my “library”, a heavy collection of books I’ve enjoyed during and since college. I was happy to pass so many on to their new owners, figuring they will do the world much more good in others’ possesion. It was cool to see the dozens and dozens of books laid out, kind of exposing the stuff I had been feeding my brain the past decade. A lot of books on spirituality, wealth-building, government/spy/economics/crime novels, various religious texts as well as anti-relgious texts, poetry books, and classics/assigned reading in college, nutrition/diet, and landscaping/plants.

In a way, it feels like I’m trusting the universe to provide a wonderful future for me and that I don’t really have to hold onto much.

I’m in a giving phase, and it feels good.

I was visited by John Avalos, who I enjoyed chatting with and sharing the blueberry-mint lemonade I had made earlier in the day. I signed his petition for superintendent and remarked that I had voted for him for mayor and was sorry that he hadn’t won. I also met several other neighbors and members of the neighborhood watch committee, which I became a member of. I also rememeber remarking to Avalos that I guess I’m finally accepting that I “live” in the Excelsior. I had only planned to live here about 3 months, for the past 5 years. I still really enjoy it here and will probably keep settling in and letting a couple more roots grow out.

To moving on….

Life Lessons

Lessons becoming very clear today:

1. Never be too proud to work a job “beneath” your level of education. Supervisor at valet job commented he was doing payroll this week, I thanked him in advance, and he said, “Thank YOU, for working. Because you are willing to work, I get paid to supervise and do payroll.”

I thought that was pretty cool.

2. We intuitively know what others need, we have to create the peaceful, quiet, receptive environment in which desires can surface and be met with completion. This is a natural process which takes time, time that is normally rushed in a work week full of tasks and activities. There is a certain pace which is more conducive to individuals coming together to get their needs met. This rhythm is most easily found when immersing oneself in nature, i.e., tuning out of routine noises and tasks and tuning into the rhythms of the breezes, birds chirping, water falling, etc.

3. You can choose the interpretation of your experience of life as either a victim of your environment, or a master of your environment. The truth is somewhere along the spectrum. But if you act as though you are the master of your environment, you make it more so. This is because you take responsibility for any outcomes you see around you and work to change everything within your power to suit your vision of happiness. Conversely, one who blames and criticizes his/her environment gives power to the environment and makes the victim more impotent.

Live powerfully!