Anger and trust
And lust and power
Envy and want
Fear and need
Hiding by doing
Lost in my freedom
Anxious, directionless
Pockets of bliss
Flashes of clarity
Appear in the smog
Wrestling the demons
Formless and strong
Appetite endless
Energy scattered
Homeless
Not building
No plan to stay put
New Structures
Noticing
How good
Stories of abundance
Glory
Attraction
Feel to me
Noticing
How real
Anything I desire becomes
Observing
How far I feel from
Awesome
Minute by minute
Except when I remember to
Breaking patterns
Noticing the lattice
The web around me
And making it disappear
By changing my mind
Walking in a new direction
MIX IT UP!!!
Eyes Open
Let’s stop walking down the street
Pretending we don’t know one another
It’s much more fun
Welcoming each other to the party!
Our Love
Sitting with this moment
Grateful for the face of love you’ve shown me
Surrender, fully present
Two hearts pressing against each other
Dancing to a silent song
We’re the kind of sensitive,
Passionate lovers of life
Whose gifts are first expressed in the bedroom
If only we could make love
To our work, to our families
To our cities, our neighbors
To our countries
The whole earth would glow
Deathtrap
Remembering
That boys want a life full of art too
Don’t be so predictable
Leave a little to the imagination
Stoke the fires of competition
Make them rise to the occasion
Who wants a day just like the last?
Make it better
Sweeter
Funnier
Sexier
More playful, delightful, alluring
Resist the routine that hides your passion
What is Love?
“the word LOVE was created to try to encapsulate an indescribable connection and communication of respect, adoration, sensuality and peace, which in turn brings a feeling, ‘Love’.” David H.
Expanding Again
Tangled in a web of suggestions
Intoxicated
Hormones surging
If it were only enough to be occupied
Working a JOB
I can’t think of anything worse
Than to leave my womb empty
Another selfish year
Preparedness be damned
Suze Orman would have had me enslaved a year and a half beyond my breaking point
Fuck lust and finances
Temptation and envy and bounty
Who knows where I’d be without blessed spontanaeity?
I’ve become a fan of conscious choosing
So where does this leave me tonight?
In a world where I could live 200 years
And freeze all my eggs,
What’s the rush?
But my body is my experience
So many live just in their heads
They wouldn’t understand
My exploring of the house
But is this just another case of
Wanting something
Before it’s paid for?
Am I the Virgin Madoff
If so, who will pay for my sins?
Am I creating without due process?
Am I animal or am I calculating?
Will the cards decide my path this time?
Is anyone on my side?
Eyesight Improvement Protocol – Test Phase
Here’s the protocol I plan to use over the next 40 days:
1. 15-minutes full body yoga stretches in the morning
2. Exercises in morning when eyes are relaxed, keep them relaxed (Good posture, smile, breathe deeply, flutter blink after each set):
a. UP-DOWN x 8
b. LEFT-RIGHT x 8
c. LEFT-STRAIGHT-RIGHT-STRAIGHT x 4
d. CIRCLES 8-10 each
e. CIRCLES, head tilted up 8-10 each
f. CIRCLES, eyes closed, 8-10 each
g. TILTED CIRCLES, eyes closed 8-10 each
h. Top LEFT-Bottom LEFT-Top Right-Bottom Right, x4 then opposite x4
i. Horizontal 8’s – x8
j. Vertical 8’s – x8
k. Nose-Peripheral, Bridge-Peripheral, 3rd Eye-Peripheral x 4 cycles
l. Total relaxation, blinking, slowly open blinking eyes fully relaxed
m. Cover eyes in darkness 4 minutes, 1 minute to relax arms down then open
n. Close eyes, fingers point toward eyes, 1-2 mins, thumbs point 1-2 mins
o. Solarizing at sunrise and/or sunset
p. 100 near/far fully relaxed
3. 1-2 Times Throughout day
a. Close eyes for 20 seconds, artificially lift mood, look at distant object, remember sharpness, repeat
b. Play blinking game for 5-10 minutes
4. Every hour on the computer, look UP-DOWN-LEFT-RIGHT-NEAR-FAR, then palm eyes
5. Night
a. Steam & eucalyptus vapor for 1-2 minutes followed by cold wet paper towels on eyes before bed
6. 4 days on, 3 days off eye exercises
Details, inspired by:
http://www.scribd.com/doc/4958881/Eye-Exercises-to-Natural-Vision-Correction-FREE
http://www.collaboration.org/centers/bureaucentral/Departments/eye_clinic.htm
We’re So Far Past Pro-Life
Even pro-lifers use birth control
Every time an egg and a sperm get away
Without meeting in a warm, cozy uterus
Or a warm, cozy petri dish
An angel loses its wings
Why not collect and freeze every cute little wiggling tail?
None down the hatch, now!
One day we may need to populate another planet
Give their Adam and Eve and Cain and Abel
People to go visit
Enough talk about what to do with my stomach’s contents
If you need them so badly, execute me and harvest away!
Or better yet, build an American town, every day, forever
For the 3,700 tiny people you could retrieve and rescue
Not your best plan.
So try setting down your hammer,
And your condemning signs,
And sing a song reminding yourself,
That your own life is worth living.
Love and Loathing in San Francisco
The most frustrating thing is not having the answers
Wandering mapless
Great for an education
But when all is quiet the clock hands tick thunder
When will we be loved?
I loved you and you sent me away spinning
Citing pain
Tell me more about your hurt
The accident
Your wheelchair
The bleeding that stains all your relationships
The journey we must both be on
No one loves for no reason
I fell deep into a love hole and my first love left me there
To prove I could pay my way out
And now you can’t provide it and I can’t manage it
And the feelings of self-loathing
Match the weight of the chains of limitation we were born into
And must now throw off if we are to be truly free