My soul feels no older or wiser
Only less trapped
In this body
Less limited, restricted
More free to be moved by the currents
That feed us and surprise us
More able to see things clearly
Less colored by my fears
I've entered a land of wonder and praise
And thanksgiving
For all that is
Chorus:
Love is the thing this time I’m sure
That I couldn’t need you more now
The way that you saw things were so pure
Overjoyed
You name me
Entertain
Thoughts of peace can overcome anything
Mirror spins
Wicked tales
Here lies reflections of
Deceptions of
[Chorus]
Missing the me from you you gave to me
I don’t like the one I have created today
Crossing nameless from the one I’ve earned
To be the one, the one you gave to me
You name me
Name Me
Finding, freeing me
[Chorus x 2]
Overjoyed, Overjoyed
A complaint I have with intellectuals, particularly science-loving intellectuals, is their outright rejection of things like religion and astrology. Scientists and fundamentalists often make the same mistake of rejecting (or accepting) complex ideas by process of oversimplistic reductionism.
Both groups (religious fundamentalists and science fundamentalists) want simple, easy-to-understand answers, but for different reasons.
The problem is, when approaching topics like religion, both groups are denying the wisdom of five to ten thousand years of principles being passed on through metaphor, stories, myths, and allegory. Often I notice science fundamentalists will take a mythical story or bible story and reduce it to its "logical" points, and try to secure a true/false statement. This approach often misses the more subtle and deep meanings of the characters and circumstances of the stories that are being told.
Likewise, religious fundamentalists are often trying to secure information that supports their missions of conversion or self-preservation, and tend to reduce religious stories to very surface, actionable logic without considering the deeper message of the stories.
I have disdain for both approaches! I find both approaches to be arrogant and self-serving. Arrogant, in that fundamentalism is a less-than-100-year-old movement, and yet they feel so confident in their conclusions to throw 10,000-year-old-babies out with the bathwater. Self-serving, in that religion and astrology both have served humanity very well for thousands of years, yet are outright rejected (in the case of science) or outright accepted (usually in part) if their distilled messages match the motivations of the group.
Can't wait to dive into my astrology certification program this summer. It has already added so much richness to my life and I am excited to learn more about the ancient ways.
It goes along with an article I read recently about how people actually don’t like getting something for nothing. Flattr provides people with a way to show love and keep money/love/energy flowing between people, albeit online people!
I feel that this is an evolutionary idea and I’m excited to take part! Flattr away!!
Now that my egg-donation life is over, it’s time to kick in the exercise! I’m joining a Tuesday volleyball league, and taking Wednesday/Thursday bellydancing classes. I need to start up the crossfit again, as well as get back to my daily hikes/jogs with the pit bull. Being in shape is so awesome. I feel like achieved that this year for the first time in my life.
I am excited to continue working with my athletes. They provide constant challenges and exercises in overcoming personal challenges. I get great motivation and ideas just through helping them through their issues. I think every living person ought to have a coach, including me! Now, who will be the lucky person…
And somehow tonight, after a pitcher of sangria with a friend, I find myself at the Lexington, of all places. Not so sure about this tequila after wine idea, but the pretty girl who bought my drink seems to think it is a good one…time will tell…
Well, I decided last year I had enough of just trying to “survive.” My mantra in my massage-therapy business was “I’m not trying to be a millionaire here, I just want to provide affordable massage and have my massage therapists get paid as much as possible for their very very hard work.” I entered San Francisco with an attitude of “I’m not sure I belong here…This is a tough city to live in and I just need to survive here…I have no one here to help me and I have to do this all on my own…I don’t have another degree to fall back on so I am not as valuable to society.”
After 4 years of living those lies I had finally had enough. I was stressed to the maximum and was not enjoying the city at all – at least not the way I wanted to enjoy it: drinks/dinner out with friends, going to see shows, having days off to just relax and explore.
I decided at the end of last year that I was done playing the survival game. It wasn’t fun!! So I chose the only logical followup to the survival game…the wealth game! Thankfully, the stars have been aligning to support my new mission and I am excited to see where this one will go.
Things are already looking up. I started listening in on this telesummit called “The Spiritual Path to Money,” and it totally hit home. I was confronted with all the lies I had been telling myself the past 4 years about how I was not worthy, not ready, capable, prepared, etc. for success. I am learning that I have to go back to my 8-year-old self, who, despite her upbringing in poverty, knew FOR A FACT that she was going to have a wildly successful life and attract everything in her dreams to her. Back then I had the confidence and the dreams, and didn’t worry so much about the path.
When I became older it became all about the path…the LOGICAL ways to be “successful,” i.e. whatever society tells you is “tried-and-true”: Become an engineer, or a doctor. A teacher? “But Honey, you’re so smart!” An English major? “Don’t be naive, you’ll never make any money with that degree.”
I was more than willing to go along with this nonsense because I wanted and needed financial security so badly, I wanted it to be a shoe-in. I was not ready to take any extreme risks or chances. So I got a Chemical Engineering degree, the most highly paid degree in terms of starting salary ($58,000) of any degree in the year I graduated college: 2003. How logical.
Well, it’s time to try a different path! Having met my financial security needs with that degree in just 3.5 years, I jumped ship and started to play a new game: Build a business from scratch! Survive in one of the most expensive cities in the country! And don’t ask for a penny from anyone!
Well, this quickly became a very lonely and isolating game, and that brings me to today, and the new game. Let’s just say this one is going to be a LOT MORE FUN. The idea is, go back to my inner 8-year-old and start thinking of all the things/experiences I want in my life. Then take small steps toward them, while opening up my ability to expand and receive by purposefully indulging in myriad new experiences. So far it is working like magic!
The first day I started putting this to the test, I literally got an email right away saying: “You were just featured on Forbes.com”. That was a pretty f-cking awesome start to the experiment. Within a couple days I got 2 new clients requesting personal coaching for track & field, something I haven’t done much of any on the side for extra profit. So that is my start. Things are opening up quickly.
I decided to have my two roommates play along. I had them listen to a couple telesummit calls, they started to shift their thinking about what was possible for them, and wouldn’t you know, within 2 days they both gained $1000!! Not joking. One of them got notified that she had received a $1000 scholarship, and the other one sold 2 pieces of her art for a total of $1000 even. She has not sold a piece of art in probably 2 years?? Coincidences? I think not. All this “expansion” mindset is starting to make manifesting things very easy. For example, tonight I walked into a gas station, bought sunflower seeds, and thought to myself “Wouldn’t it be nice if I had a coffee cup to spit these seeds into on the drive?” As I was checking out, the cashier says, “Would you like a coffee cup for your sunflower seeds?” I thought this kind of shi# was limited to Burning Man. Think it, and it appears! Maybe not a totally solid example, but with everything else that has been going on I am just going to keep riding this train…
I wasn't the little girl
Who dreamed of a big white wedding
Or planned her colors
Her flowers
Her bridesmaids
I just remember
Asking God
To prepare a good man for me
Coming hone from a lovely morning at Glide Methodist Church, where I got to take a tour of their rooftop urban garden. It was very inspiring and I am excited to try something like that at home. I got to pick and eat a carrot, some arugula, wild strawberry, peas, and nibble on a mint leaf. The tour guide brought up the movie "Queen of the Sun" about honeybees. Having gotten interested in this topic after Ellen Paige's appearance on Bill Maher, I went to see the film at the Roxie after the tour.
I was amazed to learn how 3/4 of America's bees are literally trucked to California each year for 2 weeks for the almond tree blossoming. I enjoyed the neurotoxin talk about pesticides, and am now wondering if Fibromyalgia may have a honey-ingesting or pesticide relation. It is deeply moving how taking the "love" out of business causes us to rape the environment.
I love the landscaping at SFSU where I work. Everything from pretty little scenes like this to the HUGE trees all over campus pumping out their cool oxygen. So nice…
