Maybe 25 million
invisible plants and animals in the soil under my fingernail
And all that dances in my head is the last decision I made
and 25 million invisible calculations as to whether it was the right one or what the next one might be
Meanwhile I’m decentering myself in my garden
because I was boring the second I had it all
surely there is more to learn
Meanwhile 25 million things are busier than I’ll ever be
and none of them are getting paid in dollars
yet here we all are, dancing to music I just started paying attention to
wondering if we will still ruin everything
or get a few things right